Feeling a bit jaded re: my peers...

[seabeyond]

8. i was just talking to my 20 yr old nephew who is totally screwed up.

living with a 17 yr old boy, ready to take on the world but livin' with mama for another yr, because of graduation. freedom. independence. we are negotiating, lol. i want an easy riding 'nother yr with him.

while my educated, ... (university two yrs and the awesome in smart and thinking) 20 yr old son is coming home to live for three months.

also another 22 yr old nephew from the same family, that is messed up in a separate way with a one yr old daughter, lol.

i live with these people. love them. nurture them, want the best for them, i am on their side. well, duh.

easter. drinkers now, .... adding in two nieces, 22 and 26.

i sit to eat with that group of three, that had a dysfunctional family life for two decades. porn.

we are fuckin talking about

porn.

really people. NO fuggin' interest. why do people keep shoving their porn in my face, in my space. you all say YOUR right to use porn. go for it. keep it the fuck out of my space and my face.

i am kinda confused because i had just sat down, and had been thinking about and taking care of the group inside, .... sitting at a table to eat. these people are not in that one particular part of that family and were talking about all kinds of fun stuff, and it was not porn.

then we go to how both nephews were raped. boys can be raped too. both you were raped? i asked. this is a new thing from mens groups, givin' to our boys. that they are equally raped. cause they arent really into the girl, but the girl is naked, so he cant help, gets a hard on, takes care of it, ..... you know, rape. the kinda rape all girls are talking about with date rape. remorse. lol.

omg.... then we went on to some other, .... being fucked up sexually and i think one was saying has a tough time getting it up any more, ..... 20 fuggin old.

mostly i am listening. trying to process this all. and we just progress to another direction that is just as amazing.

i read about a 16 yr old gang raped during spring break among a crowd. drugged, videoed, distributed for rape porn, for men to get off on.

i read about a 3 yr old that caused her own rape.

are ye there.... yet?