Phoenix Tears

[felix_numinous]

6. I saw the video too

and also swore that I would try this if I got sick. But I have learned that the world changes after you get ill. I became dependent on friends--I was lucky to be able to get herb through the grapevine--and that MD passed a medical marijuana law right as I was beginning my chemo. So I had the energy to make cannabutter.

Since this oil shrinks tumors on epithelial tissue and my tumors were on my intestines (whole GI tract is epithelial tissue) I knew that I had to eat a lot of this oil. But actual phoenix tears takes a lot of plant material--including leaves--to make. I felt lucky to get pot at all. I got strong weed but did not know what kind or how it was grown. So I did my best with what I had.

I still think the cannabutter helped a lot--I did not take the pain meds nor the prescription for nausea they gave me. Smoking helped on the rough days, and was (and is) the best for headaches. I have a kind of cancer that is very hard to treat conventionally, it is really only manageable, so I think this herb is one that can extend my life.

Having access to a lot of plant material is necessary, both for juicing the leaves, and for the concentrated oil. In these transitionary times, there are states still in prohibition, and others in various stages of legalization. But it gets tricky when you are renting, and when you are in a community of people with different ideologies and around kids, when not everyone is up to speed about what is going on. I can tell you, it has and continues to be a real trip to be ill and have to socially navigate these times.

Peace to everybody~~Felix