not doing so hot right now

[fizzgig]

10. i have me time

but i don't want to do anything more than just sit on the couch and watch netflix. our plans this weekend are really all about me and i'm hoping the time away and the show will help us both get our heads straight a bit.

as far as the husband, he has an untreated depressive disorder that he won't even acknowledge to the point he gets angry at the mere suggestion of it. i flat out told him how i was feeling but it just caused more issues than it solved. he thinks that feelings are bullshit and just don't matter on a good day and he is outright dismissive of mine right now. we do this dance every so often and it wears me down sometimes. he did, however, talk to me about how he is feeling right now and that is a positive sign. i love him and it makes me sad to see him struggle like this.

you guys are a great lot and i'm so happy i have people who understand.