I was once told by a career counselor once

[GPV]

2. It only takes a millisecond to go from worried

to panicky and depressed. The cascading thought chain is so damn fast. I'm a catastrophizing black and white personalize. I always jump to the worst case scenario, and my personal guilt is always at the end of it. Very painful way to live life, esp since I'm an emotional eater. I get to beat myself, too. The only thing i can do is stay on my meds and fight back with rational, positive thoughts while pumping up my self worth.

I hope you can find a way to switch to a positive filter.