I was once told by a career counselor once

[BlueKota]

"that the world needs people like me, but the world doesn't value people like me, and I was going to struggle going forward because of it.

He said it's because most people prefer to act first and deal with consequences after, but I like to consider possibe outcomes before acting, or choosing not to act.

I also tend to tell people hope for the positive but be prepared for the negative. But a lot of people want to believe that thinking positive is enough in and off itself, will make things turn out that way. That's not logical to me.

I am struggling to hold it together. I am torn between speaking out, or holding it all in. I feel strongly because of my past studies of history that very bad things are going to happen, if we just assume it's all going to be all right. That action needs to be taken before it's too late, but no one wants to hear it. But if I keep it in, my anxiety gets worse.

Also I just feel like I wasted my life studying history because humans as a whole don't seem to learn much from it. I do feel like I don't have a lot of value to the world and never have.

The only reason I keep going is because I made a commitment to my dog and cat to feed and take care of them for the duration of their lives , and I will honor that. I just don't know how to quit feeling tired, scared, and 😔 sad.