I never watched the 'West Wing' when it was aired. I started Season one and just finished episode 10. I'm

[sinkingfeeling]

crying my eyes out for the country that was and the one I have left.

I know that 'West Wing' is fictional, but it has driven home the end of the Clinton administration; the hope of progress I held then; the optimism I had that Al Gore would continue the push to save us; the confidence I had in believing those in power were intelligent, compassionate people who were doing their best for the USA.

Then came the SCOTUS' dreadful decision on the 2000 election, 9/11, the false statements against Iraq, the invasion, water-boarding, and the acceptance of lies. I stopped flying the American flag.

Obama was a breath of fresh air. He disappointed me with his decision to not pursue Bush era law breakers and to move forward. I was 100% sure I would see the first female president in 2016.

I vaguely made it through the first Tr*ump administration and was relieved when Biden won. I was so happy to see the indictments come in against the vile man. But I made a vow on election day 2024, that if Kamala lost, I would leave the country. I was going to post about my burning anger on the anniversary of that election, but didn't. That day destroyed all my previous retirement plans. I had moved to be close to my son and granddaughter. I had bought a cute, little house across the street and was about 90% done on its remodel. I had expected it to be the house I died in. Because of TSF, I'm now alone 3400 miles from my family.

Viewing the fictional account of the America I remember in 1999 and comparing it to the daily destruction occurring in real time, tears me apart.

Should I continue binge watching the series?