I'm self-diagnosing myself with complex PTSD. I've had previous counseling w/inadequate

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results and, at my age, there aren't many solutions that make any sense in pursuing. Everything triggers the feelings of fear and terror. Can anyone tell me how to cope; nothing is normal from my still married status to my country's precarious constitutional guarantees should that monster be re-elected. I'm feeling poor, invisible, and useless. I desperately want to live--just not like this! I manage the anger but not the acceptance that I've wasted my life. Everything's a trigger...some things not even current traditional civic rules, by tradition, could force ME to reveal what crimes I have been subjected. Are there any human beings that would convince me I still have any worth in this world???